I'm getting older, I think I'm aging well

I wish someone had told me I'd be doing this by myself

There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for

But it's different when a stranger's always waiting at your door

Which is ironic 'cause the strangers seem to want me more

Than anyone before (anyone before)

Too bad they're usually deranged

Last week, I realized I crave pity

When I retell a story, I make everything sound worse

Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing

And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed

Which is ironic because when I wasn't honest, I was still being ignored

(Lying for attention just to get neglection)

Now we're estranged

Things I once enjoyed (ah-ah)

Just keep me employed now

Things I'm longing for

Someday, I'll be bored of

It's so weird

That we care so much until we don't

I'm getting older, I've got more on my shoulders

But I'm getting better at admitting when I'm wrong

I'm happier than ever, at least that's my endeavor

To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure

Cause to be honest, I just wish that what I promise

Would depend on what I'm given (not on his permission)

(Wasn't my decision) to be abused, mmm

Things I once enjoyed

Just keep me employed now

Things I'm longing for, mmh

Someday, I'll be bored of

It's so weird

That we care so much until we don't

But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughing

For anybody asking, I promise I'll be fine

I've had some trauma, did things I didn't wanna

Was too afraid to tell ya, but now, I think it's time

Okay

Mm-mm, I

I didn't change my number

I only changed who I reply to

Laura said I should be nicer

But not to you

I love a "You mad at me?" text

Should've guessed

That you would think I was upset

You're obsessed

Don't take it out on me

I'm out of sympathy for you

Maybe you should leave

Before I get too mean

I didn't change my number

I only changed who I believe in

You were easy on the eyes, eyes, eyes (eyes)

But looks can be deceiving

I gotta work, I go to work

You don't deserve to feel so hurt

You gotta a lot of fucking nerve

I don't deserve, so

Don't take it out on me

I'm out of sympathy for you

Maybe you should leave

Before I get too mean

And take it out on you

And your best friend too

I should have left when Drew

Said you were bad news

Mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm

La-la-la

Love when it comes without a warnin'

Cause waitin' for it gets so borin'

A lot can change in twenty seconds

A lot can happen in the dark

Love when it makes you lose your bearings

Some information's not for sharing

Use different names at hotel check-ins

It's hard to stop it once it starts

It starts

I'm not sentimental

But there's somethin' 'bout the way you look tonight, mm

Makes me wanna take a picture

Make a movie with you that we'd have to hide

You better lock your phone

And look at me when you're alone

Won't take a lot to get you goin'

I'm sorry if it's torture though

I know, I know

It might be more of an obsession

You really make a strong impression

Nobody saw me in the lobby (saw me in the lobby)

Nobody saw me in your arms, mm

I'm not sentimental

But there's somethin' 'bout the way you look tonight

('Bout the way you look tonight) mm

Makes me wanna make 'em jealous

I'm the only one who does it how you like

(Only one who does it how you)

You better lock your phone

And look at me when you're alone (you're alone, you're alone)

Won't take a lot to get you goin' (get me goin', get me goin')

I'm sorry if it's torture though (torture though)

I know, I know

You better lock your door

And look at me a little more

We both know I'm worth waitin' for (waitin' for)

That heavy breathin' on the floor (on the floor)

I'm yours, I'm yours (I'm yours)

I'm not sentimental

I'm not sentimental

I'm not sentimental

I can't seem to focus

And you don't seem to notice

I'm not here

I'm just a mirror

You check your complexion

To find your reflection's all alone

I had to go

Can't you hear me?

I'm not comin' home

Do you understand?

I've changed my plans

Cause I, I'm in love

With my future

Can't wait to meet her

And I, I'm in love

But not with anybody else

Just wanna get to know myself

I know supposedly I'm lonely now (lonely now)

Know I'm supposed to be unhappy

Without someone (someone)

But aren't I someone? (Aren't I someone? Yeah)

I'd (I'd) like to be your answer (be your answer)

Cause you're so handsome (you're so handsome)

But I know better

Than to drive you home

Cause you'd invite me in

And I'd be yours again

But I, I'm in love (love, love, love, love)

With my future

And you don't know her

And I, I'm in love (love, love)

But not with anybody here

I'll see you in a couple years

Can't take it back once it's been set in motion

You know I love to rub it in like lotion

If you only pray on Sunday

Could you come my way on Monday?

Cause I like to do things God doesn't approve of if she saw us

She couldn't look away, look away, look away

She'd wanna get involved, involved, involved

And what would people say, people say, people say

If they listen through the wall, the wall, the wall?

I can see it clear as day

You don't really need a break

Wanna see what you can take

You should really run away

I wanna do bad things to you (to you)

I wanna make you yell (yell)

I wanna do bad things to you (to you)

Don't wanna treat you well

Can't take it back once it's been set in motion

You know I need you for the oxytocin

If you find it hard to swallow

I can loosen up your collar

Cause as long as you're still breathing

Don't you even think of leaving

Not gonna wanna look away, look away, look away

You're gonna wanna get involved, involved, involved

And what would people say, people say, people say

If they listen through the wall, the wall, the wall?

I can see it clear as day

You don't really need a break

Wanna see what you can take

You should really run away

Other people wouldn't stay

Other people don't obey

You and me are both the same

You should really run away

Bad things

To you

I wanna do bad things to you

I wanna make you yell

I wanna do bad things to you

Don't wanna treat you well

[Intro]

He hath come to the bosom of his beloved Smiling on him, she beareth him to highest heav'n With yearning heart

On thee we gaze, O' gold-wing'd messenger of mighty Gods

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse 1]

Gold-winged angel

Go home, don't tell

Anyone what you are

You're sacred and they're starved

And their art is gettin' dark

And there you are to tear apart

Tear apart, tear apart, tear apart

[Chorus]

You better keep your head down-down

Da-da-down-down, da-da-down-down

Better keep your head down-down

Da-da-down-down, da-da-down-down

[Verse 2]

They're gonna tell you what you wanna hear

Then they're gonna disappear

Gonna claim you like a souvenir

Just to sell you in a year

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[Chorus]

You better keep your head down-down

Da-da-down-down, da-da-down-down

Keep your head down-down (Down)

Da-da-down-down, da-da-down-down

Better keep your head down-down

Da-da-down-down, da-da-down-down

Keep your head down-down

Da-da-down-down, da-da-down-down

[Outro]

That's good

Something's in the-

Something's in the air right now

Like I'm losing track of time

Like I don't really care right now, but maybe that's fine

You weren't even there that day

I was waitin' on you

I wondered if you aware that day was the last straw for me and I know

I sent you flowers

Did you even care?

You ran the shower and left them by the stairs

Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh

Ay-ay-ay-ay, ay, ay

Thought you had your shit together, but damn, I was wrong

You ain't nothin' but a lost cause

And this ain't nothin' like it once was

I know you think you're such an outlaw

But you got no job

You ain't nothin' but a lost cause

And this ain't nothin' like it oncе was

I know you think you're such an outlaw

But you got no job

I used to think you were shy

But maybe you just had nothing on your mind

Maybe you were thinkin' 'bout yourself all the time

I used to wish you were mine

But that was way before I realized

Someone like you would always be so easy to find

So easy (so easy)

He-hee, mm-mm-mm, mm

Gave me no flowers

Wish I didn't care

You'd been gone for hours

Could be anywhere

Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah

Thought you would've grown eventually, but you proved me wrong

You ain't nothing but a lost cause

And this ain't nothing like it once was

I know you think you're such an outlaw (yeah)

But you got no job

You ain't nothing but a lost cause

And this ain't nothing like it once was

I know you think you're such an outlaw (think you're such an outlaw)

But you got no job

What did I tell you?

Don't get complacent

It's time to face it now, na-na, na-na, na-na

What did I tell you?

Don't get complacent

It's time to face it now, na-na-na

I don't want it

And I don't want to want you

But in my dreams I seem to be more honest

And I must admit, you've been in quite a few

Halley's Comet

Comes around more than I do

But you're all it takes for me to break a promise

Silly me to fall in love with you

I haven't slept since Sunday

Midnight for me is 3:00 a.m. for you

But my sleepless nights are better

With you than nights could ever be alone, ooh-ooh-ooh

I was good at feeling nothing, now I'm hopeless

What a drag to love you like I do, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh

Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh

I've been loved before, but right now in this moment

I feel more and more like I was made for you

For you

I'm sitting in my brother's room

Haven't slept in a week or two, or two

I think I might have fallen in love

What am I to do?

Do you know me?

Really know me?

You have opinions

About my opinions

About my music

About my clothes

About my body

Some people hate what I wear

Some people praise it

Some people use it to shame others

Some people use it to shame me

But I feel you watching

Always

And nothing I do goes unseen

So while I feel your stares

Your disapproval

Or your sigh of relief

If I lived by them

I'd never be able to move

Would you like me to be smaller, weaker, softer, taller?

Would you like me to be quiet?

Do my shoulders provoke you?

Does my chest?

Am I my stomach? My hips?

The body I was born with

Is it not what you wanted?

If I wear what is comfortable

I am not a woman

If I shed the layers

I'm a slut

Though you've never seen my body

You still judge it

And judge me for it

Why?

We make assumptions about people

Based on their size

We decide who they are

We decide what they're worth

If I wear more

If I wear less

Who decides what that makes me?

What that means?

Is my value based only on your perception?

Or is your opinion of me

Not my responsibility?

I don't really even know how it happened

I started talkin', they started laughin'

I don't really even know how it happened

I started watchin' them photographin'

I don't really (I don't really) how it happened

Instead of stoppin', they still were flashin' (I don't really)

I started walkin' (I don't really), gave no reaction

(No reaction)

I'm overheated, can't be defeated

Can't be deleted, can't un-believe it

I'm overheated, can't be defeated

Can't be deleted, can't be repeated

I'm overheated

I'm overheated

I don't really wanna know why you went there (why you went there)

I kinda don't care (kinda don't care), you wanna kill me (you wanna kill me)

You wanna hurt me (mm), stop bein' flirty

It's kinda workin'

Did you really think this is the right thing to do?

(Is it news? News to who?)

That I really looked just like the rest of you, mm

I'm overheated, can't be defeated

Can't be deleted, can't un-believe it

I'm overheated, can't be defeated

Can't be deleted, can't be repeated

I'm overheated

And everybody said it was a let down

I was only built like everybody else now

But I didn't get a surgery to help out

Cause I'm not about to redesign myself now, am I?

(Am I?) Am I?

All these other inanimate bitches

It's none of my business

But don't you get sick of

Posin' for pictures with that plastic body?

Man

I'm overheated, can't be defeated

Can't be deleted, can't un-believe it

I'm overheated, can't be defeated

Can't be deleted, can't be repeated

I'm overheated

Everybody dies, surprise, surprise

We tell each other lies, sometimes, we try

To make it feel like we might be right

We might not be alone

Be alone

Everybody dies, that's what they say

And maybe in a couple hundred years

They'll find another way

I just wonder why you'd wanna stay

If everybody goes

You'd still be alone

I don't wanna cry, some days I do

But not about you

It's just a lot to think about the world I'm used to

The one I can't get back

At least not for a while

I sure have a knack for seeing life more like a child

It's not my fault, it's not so wrong to wonder why

Everybody dies

And when will I?

You oughta know

That even when it's time

You might not wanna go

But it's okay to cry

And it's alright to fold

But you are not alone

You are not unknown

Try not to abuse your power

I know we didn't choose to change

You might not wanna lose your power

But having it's so strange

She said you were a hero, you played the part

But you ruined her in a year, don't act like it was hard

And you swear you didn't know (didn't know)

No wonder why you didn't ask

She was sleeping in your clothes (in your clothes)

But now she's got to get to class

How dare you?

And how could you?

Will you only feel bad when they find out?

If you could take it all back, would you?

Try not to abuse your power

I know we didn't choose to change

You might not wanna lose your power

But having it's so strange

I thought that I was special, you made me feel

Like it was my fault you were the devil, lost your appeal

Does it keep you in control? (In control)

For you to keep her in a cage?

And you swear you didn't know (didn't know)

You said you thought she was your age

How dare you?

And how could you?

Will you only feel bad if it turns out

That they kill your contract?

Would you?

Try not to abuse your power

I know we didn't choose to change

You might not wanna lose your power

But power isn't pain

Mmm

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, hmm

Did you think I'd show up in a limousine? No

Had to save my money for security

Got a stalker walking up and down the street

Says he's Satan and he'd like to meet

I bought a secret house when I was 17

Haven't had a party since I got the keys

Had a pretty boy over, but he couldn't stay

On his way out, made him sign an NDA

Yeah, I made him sign an NDA

Once was good enough

Cause I don't want him having shit to say

You couldn't save me, but you can't let me go, oh, no

I can crave you, but you don't need to know

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I can barely go outside, I think I hate it here

Maybe I should think about a new career

Somewhere in Kauai where I can disappear

I've been having fun, getting older now

Didn't change my number, made him shut his mouth

At least I gave him something he can cry about

I thought about my future, but I want it now

Want it now

You can't give me up

You couldn't save me, but you can't let me go, oh, no

I can crave you, but you don't need to know

Did I take it too far?

Now I know what you are

You hit me so hard

I saw stars

Think I took it too far

When I sold you my heart

How'd it get so dark?

I saw stars

Stars

[Chorus]

I'm not your friend

Or anything, damn

You think that you're the man

I think, therefore, I am

I'm not your friend

Or anything, damn

You think that you're the man

I think, therefore, I am

[Verse 1]

Stop, what the hell are you talking about? Ha

Get my pretty name out of your mouth

We are not the same with or without

Don't talk 'bout me like how you might know how I feel

Top of the world, but your world isn't real

Your world's an ideal

[Pre-Chorus]

So go have fun

I really couldn't care less

And you can give 'em my best, but just know

[Chorus]

I'm not your friend

Or anything, damn

You think that you're the man

I think, therefore, I am

I'm not your friend

Or anything, damn

You think that you're the man

I think, therefore, I am

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[Verse 2]

I don't want press to put your name next to mine

We're on different lines, so I

Wanna be nice enough, they don't call my bluff

Cause I hate to find

Articles, articles, articles

Rather you remain unremarkable (Got a lotta)

Interviews, interviews, interviews

When they say your name, I just act confused

[Pre-Chorus]

Did you have fun?

I really couldn't care less

And you can give 'em my best, but just know

[Chorus]

I'm not your friend

Or anything, damn

You think that you're the man

I think, therefore, I am

I'm not your friend

Or anything, damn

You think that you're the man

I think, therefore, I am

[Bridge]

I'm sorry

I don't think I caught your name

I'm sorry

I don't think I caught your name

[Chorus]

I'm not your friend (I'm not your friend)

Or anything, damn

You think that you're the man (They wanna, they can try)

I think, therefore, I am

I'm not your friend (I'm not your friend)

Or anything, damn (They wanna)

You think that you're the man

I think, therefore, I am

When I'm away from you, I'm happier than ever

Wish I could explain it better

I wish it wasn't true

Give me a day or two to think of something clever

To write myself a letter

To tell me what to do, mm-mmm

Do you read my interviews?

Or do you skip my avenue? (My avenue)

When you (when you) said you were passing through

Was I even on your way?

I knew when I asked you to (when I asked you to)

Be cool about what I was telling you

You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do (what you said you'd do)

And I'd end up more afraid

Don't say it isn't fair

You clearly weren't aware that you made me miserable

So if you really wanna know

When I'm away from you (when I'm away from you)

I'm happier than ever (happier than ever)

Wish I could explain it better (wish I could explain it better)

I wish it wasn't true (wish it wasn't true), mmm-mmm

You call me again, drunk in your Benz

Driving home under the influence

You scared me to death, but I'm wasting my breath

Cause you only listen to your fucking friends

I don't relate to you

I don't relate to you, no

Cause I'd never treat me this shitty

You made me hate this city

And I don't talk shit about you on the internet

Never told anyone anything bad

Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything

And all that you did was make me fucking sad

So don't waste the time I don't have

And don't try to make me feel bad

I could talk about every time that you showed up on time

But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did

Never paid any mind to my mother or friends

So I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid

You ruined everything good

Always said you were misunderstood

Made all my moments your own

Just fucking leave me alone

Home alone, tryin' not to eat

Distract myself with pornography

I hate the way she looks at me

I can't stand the dialogue, she would never be

That satisfied, it's a male fantasy

I'm going back to therapy

Cause I loved you then and I love you now

And I don't know how

Guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around

If I'm getting over you

Or just pretending to

Be alright, convince myself I hate you

I got a call from a girl I used to know

We were inseparable years ago

Thought we'd get along but it wasn't so

And it's all I think about when I'm behind the wheel

I worry this is how I'm always gonna feel

But nothing lasts, I know the deal

But I loved you then and I love you now

And I don't know how

Guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around

If I'm getting over you

Or just pretending to

Be alright, convince myself I hate you

Can't get over you

No matter what I do

I know I should but I could never hate you